Dean Brown

The reason behind my choice to raise money for this charity is because it’s actually something very close to my own heart. I can openly say I myself have been a person who has had to the past 6-7 years really struggle with my own mental health, a couple of years ago people would look at me and not even realise the struggles I had going on in my own head and this was because I got that good at just placing my own struggles deep down in me so none could tell I was in a really struggling , I would come across like a ball of laughs when around people making sure I over compensate in being a bit silly or trying to make others laugh and this was all because I didn’t want anyone to see what I was going through. I also used to drink a hell of a lot and whenever I drank I also use to take drugs and I can say the reason why I did all this because I was struggling to cope with what I was going through in my head. I didn’t really see my own problems until it started to come out around the people closest to me such as my beautiful wife and my daughter and at this point I new I needed to change or needed to be able to deal with my own emotions and struggles so I decided to go seek help, after all these years of masking my feelings and not dealing with them in the right way I new it was either get help or lose everything around me an lose my self and this is something I wasn’t willing to do. So last year I decided to go through the NHS and they placed me on a waiting list for a new therapy Doncaster are doing and this is called talking therapy. Come September I got enrolled into this and it was a 16 session therapy in which they support you in ways you can cope with your feelings and emotions and also a safe spare were you can just feel comfortable and content in showing the really you. I have literally on Thursday just finished this and I have started to understand myself better and understand it’s okay to not be okay. I also have found out so much about myself such as I have anxiety and have overthinking anxiety in which why I found it so hard to self regulate but I couldn’t be anymore positive about this and if I can take one thing away from all of this I would say I am so glad I took the leap of faith to get some help. Don’t feel bad for asking for help when you need it to many people suffer in silence and this isn’t the answer at all. 

Anyway thanks for taking the time to listen to my story I just hope other that are struggling can read this and see there not alone and there is things in place to help people who are struggling with there mental health. 

Anyway I’ll keep you posted on are journey, today we smashed both are longest run and did amazing so it’s looking good for us both with are training so far.