My Mental Health Journey.
Wednesday 28th Aug
4th September 2023 I had a mental breakdown. I was depressed, my anxiety was horrendous, I was suicidal and I just wanted out because I felt like I couldn’t cope and to continue with life anymore. My life style was chaotic, the debts were piling up, I was exhausted, I couldn’t sleep or eat, I was impulsive, I made poor life decisions, I acted without thinking. Me brain felt like it was going to explode and I just knew at this point I needed help and I needed it fast.
The morning of the 4th September I was on day 3 with no food and no sleep. I was in a bad way and I really didn’t feel mentally well and I just wanted it to stop. I didn’t want to feel like that anymore. I called 111 for help, I was very distressed. I begged 111 to help me. Thankfully they dispatched an ambulance and I was taken to hospital were I waited all day. I spoke to a mental health doctor at the hospital and I told her what had been happening behind close doors and what lead up to that moment and how I was feeling. I begged her to help too. So she spent hours trying to find me a crisis unit to go to. Thankfully she found me a bed in a respite place. I couldn’t thank her enough for actually helping me when I needed it the most. I was then placed under Oxleys Home Treatment where in was assessed and diagnosed with an Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder as well as depression & Anxiety. Family and I suspected I mostly like had a personally disorder for a while but finally we had answers as to what was wrong with me.
I have since then been medicated, my moods are more stable, my finances are in order and I’ve pretty much cleared 2.5k worth of debt since November 2023. I was my focus to sort out once I was better. I’ve received help for my mental health and I no longer feel depressed, I communicate for effectively with other and I’ve managed to maintain healthy relationships with family and friends. I’ve got rid of toxic people and I’ve met all my goals I wanted to achieve.
Life is heading in the right direction but my anxiety is still a working progress although it’s better than last year and more manageable.
There is much more to my story and what happened after I left the crisis home but for personal reasons I don’t want to get into that.
Please speak out and ask for help with your mental health, there is no shame in doing so because you are important too!
Mental health is a big thing for me and I wouldn’t wish it upon anyone.
I couldn’t thank my family & friends for supporting me, helping me through my difficult time. Without them I don’t know what would have happened. I’ll forever be thankful to you all.
All the best,
Kimberley.
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Good luck Kim love Steve xx